15th December....It been a year of u and I...

hei hei...u don't have to cry on that...to fear and doubt so much....

sometime things happen to u that may seem horrible, painful and unfair at first

but in reflection u found that without overcoming those obstacles....

U would never realize ur potential, strength,willpower, or heart.

Illness, injury, love, lost of moments of true greatness all occurs to test all the limits of ur soul..

without these small tests, whatever they may be,

life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere..

It would be safe and comfortable,but dull and utterly pointless ...See?

the people u meet who affect ur life...and the success and downfalls u experience,

help to create who u are and who u become.

Even the bad experiences can be learned from.

Take positive of it. In Fact, they are sometimes the most important ones. 

If someones betrays,hurts or break ur heart,forgive them.

cuz they teaching u about TRUST..

and the importance of being CAUTIOUS to whom u open ur heart to..

If someone love u..love them back unconditionally...

not only cuz they love u, but bcuz they teaching u to love..

Make everyday count.

Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that u possibly can,

for u may never be able to experience it again.

Hold ur head  up cuz u have every right to.

Tell urself u are great individual and believe in urself:

for if u dont believe in urself, no one believe in u, either.

U can make ur LIFE anything u wish

Create ur own LIFE and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets

have a fighting spirit and never hesitate to get back in a struggle

learn a lesson in life each day u live

someday everything will make perfect sense

so for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears,

and keep reminding urself that everything happen for a reason...

don't give up easily..break the wall...live ur life....

I am telling u all of this bcuz I LOVE U MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF....

It doesn't matter if I dont have time to relax ( with all the commitment I have...my jobs...classes...my life...)

juz to see u SMILE and HAPPY...cuz, the only thing I can give u more is my LOVE...

Dear, I can only advice and remind u....

whatever u r lacking of I will try to help u to overcome it..

to support u....but....the most important thing is urself....only u can make the change.....

Now, its been a year. Thank u for all things u thaught me...I will not forget it..I will not cry to those small obstacles anymore.  

JODOH

JODOH adalah rahsia Allah,
kita MERANCANG dan Allah pun turut sama merancang.
cuma kadang-kadang aku TAKUT dengan RENCANA Allah..

Sebab apa? 

Sebab aku TIDAK PERNAH tahu apa yang bakal berada di hadapanku kelak,
dan apa PENGAKHIRAN yang Allah inginkan buatku, buat hidupku.
tiba-tiba hati berbisik, sebenarnya perancangan Allah mengatasi perancangan kita sendiri..
buat apa terlalu memikirkan sangat..kita LALUILAH kehidupan seperti biasa..
permulaan itu bermula dari kita, dan pengakhiran itu akan Allah TENTUKAN kelak..
BERDOALAH semoga PENGAKHIRAN itu adalah sama seperti yang dirancangkan dan yang TERBAIK dalam hidup..✿~

>>> Belum dikatakan dia JODOH kita selagi ‘AKAD’ tidak TERTUNAI ..kadang PERTEMUAN itu ada namun JODOH itu tetap menjadi RAHSIANYA lagi..(✿◠‿◠)

Kisah Dongeng

Ku sedar ku tak seberapa
Jika dibanding mereka
Yang jauh lebih megah dari diri ini

Apa yang mampu ku berhias
Hanyalah hati yang ikhlas
Terpendam simpan untuk dia yang sudi

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa
Dalam waktu sedu
Dalam waktu hiba
Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna
Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya
Kisah dongeng saja

Belum pernah ku merasakan
Dipeluk dalam dakapan
Eratnya melindungi jiwa rapuh ini

Sanubariku memerlukan
Kehadiran seorang teman
Tulus mencurah kasih sepenuh hati

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa
Dalam waktu sedu
Dalam waktu hiba
Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna
Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya
Kisah dongeng saja

Kisah kita...mungkin bukan kisah dongeng......

betapa aku sgt tak sempurna....

sgt rapuh.......kau ttp ada di situ....

pernah aku cuba menjauh......tapi....kau ttp ada di situ....

bukan sengaja utk aku menjauh...tapi....kau berhak dpt yg terbaik...

kerana kau adalah yg terbaik...

ada yg tak mampu untuk aku luahkan dari mulut ku sendiri...

di sini ...tempat yg pasti kau akan temui suatu hari...

dan pasti...kau akan terbaca entri ini.....

suatu hari...aku terlalu penat..penat mental....hihi....

aku tahu kau pun lebih penat lagi...

aku tatap dirimu .....mmg....muka kepenatan......lantas...

rasa bersalah muncul dlm diri ini...

kesian kamu......tiba-tiba...air mata aku mengalir.....

makin ku tatap wajahmu....makin deras jo air mata ku mengalir....

aku ambil handphone ku.....taip mesej khas utk mu...

" Sory bang...xtau apa yg dipikir...tp, kesian ngan abg...

x sepatutnya abg susah2 ....syg xpaksa abg utk bersama syg...

abg masih berhak pilih yg terbaik utk abg"

dan abg...tetap di situ.....bersama syg.......cinta abg...bukanlah kisah dongeng.......

-alone at home. aunty p majlis aqiqah....abg p Sri Petaling...tangan lenguh lepas darah d ambil tadi-

OH...Miss Nerve Impingement

Aku bukanla kategori org yg berat tulang....Yess....aku lebih sukak buat kerja berbanding being idle. Cuma 1 masalah aku. Buat keja sikit.....lenguh...penat....kebas...Ndak tahan banting betul....
 I am not pretending ok.......It's juz me......It juz happen.


Nerve impingement......dia mula muncul dlm idup aku 5 Jun 2011...Welcome to my life Ms. Nerve Impingement.....Aku sedih kau muncul dlm idup aku....Aku tekejut...Tapi ndak pa, Aku ndak mau layan kaw tlampau...


Gara2 kau....aku pnya tgn kiri slalu kebas...owh...baru aku taw...cenggitu rupanya...Mefenamic acid...domperidone..mecobalamin....vitamin B1, B6, B12.....ni la yg ku telan ari2....uhh.bosan......ndakkan lah ndak da cara lain.....ndak kan lah ndak blh d ubat....aku pernah dgr dr LSI...


"Laser Spine Institute (LSI) also offers foraminotomy and laminotomy to treat pinched nerves and other spinal conditions, but we perform these procedures on an outpatient basis. Our minimally invasive pinched nerve surgery involves revolutionary endoscopic techniques that drastically cut down on the incision, pain, and recovery time associated with traditional open back surgeries. At LSI, many patients begin to feel relief within the same day of surgery and more than 85% experience relief from their symptoms within 3 months."


so...there is still a hope.... don't give up!

Nerve Impingement

Symptoms of Nerve Impingement Syndrom

Nerve Impingement Syndrome (NIS), occurs when a misalignment of one or more of the joints in the spine places pressure on a nerve. Nerves communicate from the brain through the spinal cord and nervous system. Pressure on the nerves can cause interference with the transmitted signal. This can cause pain and/or discomfort, as well as other symptoms.

In addition to pain, other symptoms of Nerve Impingement Syndrome Include:

Headaches • Fatigue • Sleep Disturbances Sinus and Allergy Issues • Mood Swings • Digestive Problem

 Beginning signs of a pinched nerve

The initial symptoms of a pinched nerve may be tingling, numbness, burning sensation or shooting pains down the buttocks and legs or in the neck, shoulders, arms and fingers.

Sometimes the pains and sensations are distant from the point of pressure. For instance, a pinched nerve in the low back may cause pain in the calf as the only symptom. When there is nerve damage from constant pressure, pain and weakness may increase. There may be a loss of reflexes, movement skills, sensation in the affected area, and withering (atrophy) of the affected muscles.

What are the nerves?

Nerves are extensions from the brain that reach out into the arms or legs to go to the muscles or skin. A nerve is a cell that is microscopic in size, and its fibers may run several feet in length toward its destination. A nerve cell that lives in the brain or within the spinal cord is called a central nerve, and nerves that leave the spine to go into the arms or legs are called peripheral nerves. These peripheral nerves are actually bundles of millions of nerve fibers that leave the spinal cord and branch out to their target muscles to make them move. These nerve fibers also go to the skin to provide feeling.

After a nerve gets pinched

If a nerve gets "pinched" the flow up and down the inside of the hose is reduced or blocked and the nutrients stop flowing. Eventually the membrane starts to lose its healthy ability to transmit the tiny electrical charges and the nerve fiber may eventually die. When enough fibers stop working, the skin may feel numb or a muscle may not contract.

Source : Laser Spine Institute

Duhai Pendampingku.....

Ya Allah, jika dia yang Engkau ciptakan untuk mengisi KEKOSONGAN ini

sampaikanlah kepadanya..

jika dialah yang TERBAIK untuk hidupku dan agamaku,

maka mudahkanlah jalan ini untuk ke sana..

jika dialah yang tertulis sebagai TEMAN hidup dan matiku,

PANJANGKANLAH hubungan ini serta ikatan ini hingga ke Jannah mu

ini impian ku......terima kasih atas doa abg buat syg...

"smga syg m'jadi isteri abg yg solehah...Amin"

Terima kasih atas teguran dan bimbingan drp abg...

Di sisi ada "dia", akan ku tetap menunggu sehingga SAAT itu menjelma,

moga dipermudahkan urusan ini ya Allah..

Abg...i luv u so much........

My Heart

25/10/2011

Something happened to our relationship.......yeahhh....i just wanna say my sorry......
I've been so childish....thnx for giving me the one hour lecture........heeheehee..

I'm a big girl right now.....I wont cry like that anymore........Big girls dont cry......

It's a touch when i feel bad....

It's a smile when i get mad..

All the little things I am

Everyday I love you...

'cause u said.....

"syg adalah sepenting degupan jantung abg.....

bkn sepenting telinga...atau mata....

kerana tanpa telinga ...atau mata....

manusia masih boleh hidup....

tetapi tanpa jantung??

Syg adalah degupan jantung abg..."

I love u more and more.....

dear you.......Messages for you Part II...

ok....today, he found u ...my blog......he read it....
he texted me....saying that..."I love u so much cyngku..."
I nvr thought he will found u........my blog.....aku menulis skdr sukak2 pon.....
bila kdg2 ter emo2....aku tulis2 la di sini nie.....


51. When you said you’re at a worse state, somehow, I still feel you’re at your BEST
52. For the first time in my life, YOU ask me to grab you =)
53. You invisible but somehow I know you’re still THERE...and it always like that..
54. We fight-off but then you pretend like NOTHING happen
55. I marah-marah uoften...but u skali pun ndak pernah..
56. I like you because WHO you are...
57. Always make me NUTS but still manage to WIN my heart
58. I love the way you smile whenever you SEE me
59. Because I’m deeply, madly in LOVE with you
60. I fall in LOVE thousands times whenever you smile like that =)
61. I dont know how to COOK but you’re still HERE with me
62. You care for me like NO others ever did
63. When you GRAB me back after I wanted to back-off, I never erase the sms.
64. You curik2 write sumthing in my diary...
65. You wrote ‘bersama2 kita menghadapi hidup ini..!’
66. You look SWEET while washing dishes
67. You’re Cute, Sweet and Small..Like A Little Kid..Hehe
68. When i get mad and dont want to listen to you....you will say "nak macam ni teus ka?"..then it chill me up..
69. I NEED you in rain and rainbows
70. When you accused me for swearing that we become ‘ONE’
71. Knowing that you will never GIVE up for me
72. Everytime you look at me, you TAKE my breath away
73. I love the way you make me LAUGH
74. When we sat and eat together over SMS and it feels real
75. When you SAID you’re ready to take me as ur ****~
76. When I’m alone, thinking of you and your CHILDISH acts make me smile
77. I love the way you LAUGH and smile back at me
78. You would do anything just to make me HAPPY
79. Your WORDS light up my day with so much joys
80. Whenever I SULK, you’re going to be there instantly to treat me back
81. It feels like you’re the ONE for me even in uncertainties
82. You’re my LUCKY charm and I feel lucky to have you
84. Without knowing how, WHEN or from where it comes form, I started loving you
85. You’re my SUNSHINE that glows fully with love!
86. Because we are MEANT to be together
87. My HEART keeps telling me so!
88. My HEART belongs to you till you return it back to me =)
89. You are on my heart just like a TATOO
90. When you act like we are real, STROKE my head and say ‘sakit agi’?
91. You’re the CURE against my fear and my pain
92. For each time you say you LOVE me, I love you more
93. I’m thinking of you EACH night before I go to bed
94. Stupid! Do I have to give REASONS?
95. Look at you, extremely excited over my DRUGS! Hehe*Giggles*
96. For a few moments in my LIFE (well, actually for 11 month) you've made me feel as if I truly meant something to  someone
97. Once upon a time, I fell for you, I don’t know WHEN but I still love you
98. I’m JEALOUS with you, always =P
99. When you HURT, I feel it too...that's why i dont want to hurt you.....
100. I feel SAFE and sound with you
101. I want to SPEND my whole life with you!!

we are responsible for what we do
no matter how we feel
either you control your attitude or it controls you..
regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first
the passion fades and there had better be something else to take it

sometimes the people you expect to kick you down
will be the one to help you get back up
just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them
it doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have

sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself
no matter how bad your HEART is broken
the world doesn't stop for your grief

Messages for you....

I know...you would never read this.....
Cause you don't even know that I am exist.....huuuu
However....I hardly wanna say these words to you.....
Why am I keep thinking of you...

1.  You’re my SWEETEST medicine!
2. I don’t need to pretend to be HAPPY, it just happens~
3. I fall deeply into your SMILE
4. Just like a child, I need you as my PILLOW
5. When I walk out, I want you GRAB me back
6. I might be cry, but you’re there to WIPE it away
7. In you, I found the other part of ME
8. You’re my constant DIMPLE every time I smile....though I don't have a dimple...hee
9. Each time I think of you, BUTTERFLIES tangle in my stomach
10. You stay on the phone for HOURS even though there's nothing much to say
11. You keep text me messages....even though you are in front of me
12. When I talk, you actually LISTEN. Thnx for lending me you ear
13. When you smile each time you see my face, you make me feel BEAUTIFUL...though I am not.
14. Sometimes, both of we are stubborn but you give in FIRST...Always like that
15. You used ‘WE’ instead of ‘ME’ =). Made me feel part of yourself...
16. In miserable, I still have YOU....You know how to cheer me up
17. You TOLERATE each of my childish acts.Thnx
18. You have the KEY to my heart....Don't lose it...
19. Regardless all the girls in your life, I’m your GIRL...haha!
20. When I’m jealous, you keep TEASING me with sayang
21. Bubbly song keeps remind YOU of me and so do ME
22. When you say bye but STILL hang on the phone....then...we both keep laughing...
23. You ride a motorcycle KM away...juz to fetch me up...
24. I can be MYSELF just the way I am
25. You MIMIC me when I wipe my nose
26. Always, you make me smile when I’m in WORST....Remember when you accompany me to driving lesson...I think I am soooooo unconfident
27. Because you said you LOVE me too
28. Your fingers are FREE to make me smile
29. When your eyes shining brightly even I said you’re ITCHY!
30. Without you, I am INCONSOLABLE
31. You COMPLETE my life
32. When you say THANKS for making you laugh
33. When ‘I Love You, cantek’ SLIP out from your mouth
34. To SOOTHE me up, suddenly you sang me a song
35. I’m boring, but you’re still in LOVE with me
36. You’re my DOCTOR when I’m sick
37. My heart melt, when you told me you want to be my HUBBY..weewww
38. You touched my heart with your sugarcane MOUTH
39. You think I’m CUTE and expressed it out
40. It feels like NOBODY ever knew me before you knew me
41. Even when you say stop surf the net, you CARE
42. Even tough we may be MILES apart, I still feel you’re here by myside
43. Being a skinny Pink Panther makes no different to you
44. Seeing you never make me BORED
45. When you SULK, I still think you’re cute...haha
46. Because you’re really my MIRROR
47. When you pretend to be INNOCENT
48. When you said you AFRAID I’m getting hurt
49. I’m ADDICTED towards you!
50. You HOLD me up when everything seems falling down

Yeah....this is part of the ingredients why I fall for you...
Jiwang huh?...Like its not myself.....But it's ok...
Just enjoyceeeee..........(^___^)

Let's Learn Nihongo!!!!!(^___^)

Minna San!!Konnichiwa!!
Matta ai mashta ne
Welcome to the lesson of Kuma's Nihongo Classes on basic introduction.

Pinku no Kuma : Kuma san, konnichiwa!!
Kuma                : Pinku san, konnichiwa!!o genki desu ka?
Pinku no Kuma : Genki desu, arigato, anata wa?
Kuma                : Watashi moo genki desu, arigato.
Pinku no Kuma : Kuma san, ohayo gozaimasu!
Kuma                : Pinku San,  ohayo gozaimasu!


*note:
-"ka" at the end words is refer to a question
-Konnichiwa-Helo (however, to pick up the phone, Japanese use the phrase " Moshi2"..) 
-Anata- You
-Wa - and
- Watashi - I
-Moo - Too
- Ohayo gozaimasu - Good morning

That’s it for today’s lesson. I hope you enjoyed it.

Mata kondo oai shimashō!

I fALL IN lOve with u......teddY bear....

Hummm,.....don't know why this lately i keep thinking on this "bear" stuff.....
yeah...think it Kawaii...maybe....
but u know what.....there's also somebody that I gave HIM name as a Kuma San a.k.a Mr.Teddy.
Yesss....he was the one.....hmm..I love him...and still learn how to love him.....
and...right now.....i am planning to give something to Kuma San.....

yeeahhh....coming soon...chak...sayonara..(^^)

Sometimes u have to learn to forgive yourself
no matter how bad your HEART is broken

the world doesn't stop for your grief.....